Well, I feel that this is another post that's gonna get a little personal. I think that there are so many things that people don't really understand about me and don't really know why I do the things I do. So here are just a few of the things that I've struggled dealing with.
I don't drink or party- I know your thinking wow shes a 20 year old college kid what is wrong with her. I have sooo many people around me who do drink and party almost every single night and weekend. I've seen the poor choices they've made and criminal charges they now have against them and I just don't want to be mixed up in that. I have had a couple friends say to me that the reason they drink is because it helps with their emotional problems. I'm sorry to say but drinking has gone from a recreation to an addiction. It's just no fun to see the people you use to care so much for get caught up in that crap. Now i'm saying that i'm never going to drink, hello i'm turning 21 this year, but i'd rather it be a drink every now and then than trying to get plastered every night.
I hate group projects-This is something I've been struggling with this since I was in kindergarten. Every time a teacher said we had a group project due I was always thinking ugg can I just do it on my own. It's just I would rather do it on my own and not have to worry about pleasing the other people in my group. They want things done their way and I want things done my way and most of the time I just let them have their ways because compromising just doesn't work.
I am extremely uncomfortable in large groups- I was so lucky growing up that when I was in elementary school I had a class of maybe 20 and then my graduating class in high school had 22 kids with maybe 100 kids in both high school and jr high! It wasn't overwhelming and you knew everyone. I hear people talking about going to a school that they met new people on graduation day! I also try to avoid any place or even that there is going to be a large group of people. Hence online college courses and nursing school where there are the same 26 people all day every day. I would be perfectly fine living in the middle of nowhere with no people for miles. I love people but just one on one or in small groups :) I have a gypsy soul- I absolutely love to travel and would give anything to live out of a suit case in hotels. It's always so exciting when an opportunity for a trip comes up! Visiting new places, trying new foods, learning the history about the place just makes me extremely happy! So many people are afraid to travel because they don't want to leave their little bubble of their hometown that they've lived in their whole lives. I think their really scared to leave to realize that there are better things out there and they won't want to come back! Now don't get me wrong I absolutely love my small hometown. Everyone knows everyone and it's just comfortable knowing everyone takes care of each other but there are so many places to explore and people to meet and I just want to go and don't want to be tied down!
I hate being the center of attention- I know some people who know me are like yeah right. In some cases I can be rather talkative and can make my presence known but it's usually because it's about something i'm passionate about. But most of the times I just want to slide by and go unnoticed. I can honestly say that I'm not looking forward to getting married! LOL Not only will all those people be watching me but i'll be wearing a dress as well another thing i'm so uncomfortable with. If only I didn't have all this cool stuff on pinterest for the perfect wedding, i'd totally go to Vegas or a court house to get married!
I mostly get along with all types of people:For as long as I can remember I've tried to get along with everyone I really hate controversy and drama so I try to avoid it. I use the "innocent until proven guilty" theory when meeting people. If i meet them I get to know them and if they show me that they are a good person great but if they try to cross me or do something behind my back, where done. I can count numerous times where I've met someone and was quick to judge, which i'm not proud of but it happens sometimes, and then gotten to know them and they are some of the most kind hearted individuals. But then it's happened the other way around as well. I've met someone who comes off as nice and innocent and then they end up being fake and rude. So if your good to me i'll be good to you but if your not then I don't need your energy!
I don't like to fail- I wouldn't say i'm an overly competitive person but I just hate to lose. Growing up I showed livestock and through that I've really learned to be a gracious winner and not to be a sore loser. It's just such a disappointing feeling when you work sooooo hard and then you come up short. I think i'd rather lose flat out and be last than come up second. When you come up second or just out of a qualifying spot it really makes you think about those little things you messed up on and that if you changed those little things you could have made it. I don't want to be known as a failure.
I am Old fashioned- I have to say that I was born at least 100-200 years to late. I touched base on this a few days ago about liking old things. It's something that a lot of people who I grew up with just couldn't accept and really made us grow apart. I like to write/receive hand written letters, I appreciate antiques, I like old country music, and like going to museums! On my senior trip we had one day that we could go shopping at the Branson Landing. It's just an outdoor mall with every day modern shops. On our way down there we drove down a street just a couple of blocks from the Landing and it was lined with antique stores. So instead of going with the rest of my class to Victoria secret, Hollister, or Debs I walked a little extra and found those antique shops and I was in heaven!!
I hate working with women- This is rather funny because I am going into the wrong career field!!! If I didn't love nursing, the human body, or caring for people I would have never become a nurse, simply because of the drama! Currently I am working in a nursing home and I have been to several other nursing homes, hospitals and clinics through clinicals and one thing they have in common is that there is DRAMA! I have yet to go to a hospital where they weren't talking about someone behind their backs or complaining about another coworker. I'm sure it's like this other places but I've noticed it in the hospitals since it's a more woman dominated area. I just wish everyone could just get along!!!
I like to make people happy- I am frequently trying to make people happy. I love sending surprise gifts, letters, making food I know someone likes for no reason at all and much more. I know that through blogging I've tried to let someone know if they've really impacted me with their writing. I always like it when people do special or nice things for me and so I always want to be someone who can make someone else happy.
Wow I just felt like I wrote a book but these are just a few of the things I feel that people don't really understand or know about me!